Waye

2011-06-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

ghosts all around

2011-05-04T23:56:00.001+08:00

everything with a pinch of salt.

2010-12-31T00:50:00.000+08:00

i'm ready to leave it all behind

will you come with me?

2010-12-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

oh lord why did you forsake me?

don't be far away

2010-11-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

"i don't know what i'd do without you"
"i'm infinitely scared of losing you"

it's not okay still

2010-11-11T03:38:00.001+08:00

so fucked up

2010-09-30T00:37:00.000+08:00

no it's not gonna be ok

i let go

2010-09-15T21:45:00.001+08:00

this is life?

take me home

2010-06-16T18:41:00.003+08:00

i don't know how to

exist in a world where you don't

2010-05-28T00:17:00.001+08:00

2010-05-25T00:04:00.001+08:00

i will praise you in this storm

ALL THE GLORY BE TO GOD

2010-04-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

not sure if i know you at all

2010-03-03T00:20:00.000+08:00

into your hands, i commit again

with all i am, for you lord

2010-02-24T00:50:00.001+08:00

WITHOUT YOU I'LL BE BURNIN' LOVE

2010-01-18T21:46:00.001+08:00

2010-01-16T10:11:00.001+08:00

do you feel anything at all?

2009-12-26T00:36:00.000+08:00

2 years

2009-11-08T11:36:00.000+08:00

i'm still in love with you were

and i wish you were here

2009-09-24T23:51:00.001+08:00

you wreck me

2009-06-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I don't know what it's like to land and not race to your door
But I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
I'm not sure that I really ever could
Hold on to a hotel key
in your bedroom neighborhood
With me sleep walking in Hollywood

I'm gonna steer clear
Burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if I saw you
I'd die if I didn't see you there
So I don't think I'm gonna go to LA anymore

I dont think I'm gonna go to LA anymore
Get lost on the boulevard at night
Without your voice to tell me
I love you, take a right
The ten and the two is a lonely sight

I'm gonna steer clear
Burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if I saw you
I'd die if I didn't see you

I'm gonna steer clear
Burn up in your atmosphere
I'm gonna steer clear
Cause I'd die if I saw you
I'd die if I didn't see you there, see you there

I think I'm gonna stay gonna stay, gonna stay in the grey, think i'm gonna stay
All the street lights say nevermind nevermind
All the canyon lines say nevermind
Sunset says we see this all the time, nevermind never you mind

Post Bridge:
Where ever I go
What ever I do
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you

Where ever you go
Where ever you are
I watch your life play out in pictures from afar

Where ever I go
what ever I do
I wonder where I am in my relationship to you

Where ever you go
Where ever you are
I watch your pretty life play out in pictures from afar

2009-03-17T21:59:00.002+08:00

2009-03-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

march 10

2009-01-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

this is for you and may you rest in peace

and since you're gone where are you now?
what are you now? who are you with now?

the answers i seek i know i will find no answers but yet may we all rest in the memory of your selflessness, your generosity and your goodwill to all of us. we will never forget you, even though you may have passed away from the physical world you will always remain with us, spiritually, emotionally and in our thoughts and memories.

Yuan Chi

will be missed.

let us not forget how fragile life may be, let us not take our friends for granted, let us not forget that as he has passed away, WE still have life in us, that while we may grieve his lost let us not forget to take this as a learning point, to make the most of everything.

2009-01-01T00:10:00.002+08:00

Is this the New Year, or just another night

Is this the new fear, or just another fright

Is this the finger, or just another fist

Is this the kingdom, or just a hit and miss

A misdirection, most in all this desperation

Is this what they call freedom?
Is this what they call pain?

Is this what they call discontented fame?

It'll be a day like this
When the world caves in

I'm singing this one like a broken piece of glass

From broken arms and broken noses in the back

Is this the New Year, or just another desperation?

You're pushing till you're shoving

You bend untill you break

Till you stand on the broken fields where our fathers lay

It'll be a day like this one

When the world caves in

There's nothing here worth saving

Is no one here at all?

Is there any net left that could break our fall?

It'll be a day like this one

When the sky falls down and the hungry and poor and the deserted are found

Are you discontented?

Have you been pushing hard?

Have you been throwing down this broken house of cards?

It'll be a day like this one
When the world caves in

Is there nothing left now?

Nothing left to sing?

Are there any left who hasn't kissed the enemy?

Is this the New Year, or just another desperation?

Does justice ever find you? Do the wicked never lose?
Is there any honest song to sing beside these blues?

And nothing is okay

Till the world caves in

Untill the world caves in

2008-11-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

maybe you wouldn't maybe you would

but I did

Happy Birthday

2008-10-19T20:50:00.001+08:00

2008-10-16T01:26:00.001+08:00

2008-10-11T15:43:00.001+08:00

when i lose myself i think of you

2008-08-21T20:51:00.006+08:00

He who sheds his blood for me, shall be my brother

-Shakespeare

2008-08-12T19:27:00.006+08:00

That one went nicely over the line

NDP 08 Rugger's corner

9,
6,8,7,
4,
10.

Alif,
ZhiYang, Waye, Nian En
Ivan,
Jae.

2008-08-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

SEE B2 (big guy standing)
CRACKS ME UP
HAHA

2008-08-11T18:52:00.000+08:00

Last Stand

(Let's do it for him)

2008-07-20T21:06:00.001+08:00

Oh, why you look so sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Dont be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
cause Ive seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You dont know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you

So if youre mad, get mad
Dont hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey, what you got to hide?
I get angry too
Well Im a lot like you
When youre standing at the crossroads
And dont know which path to choose
Let me come along
cause even if youre wrong

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you

And when...
When the night falls on you, baby
Youre feeling all alone
You wont be on your own

Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you

Ill stand by you
Take me in, into your darkest hour
And Ill never desert you
Ill stand by you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you
Wont let nobody hurt you
Ill stand by you

maybe you've left it far way past behind.
maybe you've forgotten.

2008-07-19T01:25:00.001+08:00

I'm so tired of thinking of her again tonight.

2008-07-11T23:07:00.001+08:00

through and through with you

2008-06-26T22:31:00.002+08:00

keith (vice captain), kaushik (treasurer), b2 (bennett goh), arthur, ivan (quartermaster), shi rui, joshua, elmo (jing xuan), nian en, cheesecake (zhi yang), waye (captain), aliff, jae (vice captain), haziq (vice captain), b1 (bennett lee), izhar, lennard, karthik (asst quartermaster). subastian, matthew, nicholas, steven, nick, wern.

c'div 08
kick some ass

(Insert Kiwi Cup 0'8 Curtain Raiser Picture Here)
(Insert M'sia Tour Picture Here)
[When i get it]

2008-06-24T23:35:00.004+08:00

"You are beautiful, but you are empty. One could not die for you. To be sure, an ordinary passerby would think that my rose looked just like you--the rose that belongs to me. But in herself alone she is more important than all the hundreds of you other roses: because it is she that I have watered; because it is she that I have put under the glass globe; because it is she that I have sheltered behind the screen; because it is for her that I have killed the caterpillars (except the two or three that we saved to become butterflies); because it is she that I have listened to, when she grumbled, or boasted, or even sometimes when she said nothing. Because she is my rose."

2008-06-21T10:15:00.004+08:00

Does being a non-believer make it easier for you to go to Heaven?

Take for example,

Gracia is an atheist, she does not disregard or disrespect the belief of many others that there is a God in the universe, she, just does not believe so. However, she is a very morally upright person, she believes that she should make her lifetime valuable and the purpose of her life is to help others, thus, she dedicates her time to charity and other activities that benefit the not so fortunate. She does this without any selfish intent, she does this because she believes it is her purpose in life.

Jabriel used to be a non-christian, and religion was never a basis for his actions, however, he still did have a good heart and was good natured, but with bad influences and social pressures, he never showed his good side. Now, he is a strong rooted christian, he believes in the existence of a heaven that can be reached after a certain "criteria" (let me put this way so as to avoid religious speculation) has been reached. Just like most other religions, some or many actions of good intention/will/faith (accordance to their religon) must be put forth before they can therefore reach heaven. So in this case, let us take it that in Jabriel's religion, it strongly approves of helping others for their goodwill. For example, doing charitable work and other activities that benefit the less fortunate without any gain to himself at all. However, it also makes this actions a criteria that should be passed for Jabriel to reach heaven.

Jabriel wants to go to heaven, and he is a person with good nature and he does feel the genuine calling to help the sick and needy. Since he wants to go to heaven, he has to meet the criteria, so now he has two callings, one to meet the criteria, the other to follow his general calling.
1 : Actions of good will must be done without any self gain to himself, speaks of his criteria that must be met before he can go to heaven
2 : Actions of good will, speaks of his calling of his good nature
Thus, when Jabriel's good natured side is so called "awakened" by the new religious influences, he feels the calling to help the needy. His religion too strongly approves and makes this calling a criteria that must be met before he can reach heaven.

The twist is, what if Jabriel does feel the genuine calling to help the needy, but he is stuck in this dilemma: Jabriel wants to help the needy out of his own good natured calling. His religion also states that he should have no intention of self gain whatsoever, and knowing that these actions would help him go to heaven, that might confuse him to having intention of self gain without the knowing that he is heeding his genuine calling to help the needy.

On the other hand, Gracia is happily heeding the call to help the needy without any intention to go to heaven or have any intention to use her actions as a basis for her to reach heaven. Thus, she meets the criteria better than Jabriel, which also means that it is easier for her to reach heaven in this sense.

What does this mean?

(no, it doesn't make it easier.)

2008-05-29T22:48:00.002+08:00

I remember stormy weather
The way the sky looks when it's cold
And you were with me
Content with walking
So unaware of the world

Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna go
Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who you are

I took your picture
While you were sleeping
And then I paced around the room
If I had known then
That these things happen
Would they have happened with you?

Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I don't wanna go
Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who I was

And if you turned around to see me and I was gone
You should have looked outside your window
'Cause the sun was coming up
The sun was coming up

Please don't drive me home tonight
'Cause I dont wanna feel alone
Tuesday morning
In the dark
We were finding out
Who we are
Tuesday morning
In the dark
We were finding out
Who we are
Who we are
Who we are
Who we are

2008-05-08T22:38:00.002+08:00

i'm sick of feeling like i've lost this fight
i'm sick of graying out the wrongs and rights
i'm pulling out of here to clear my sights
tonight tonight, alright alright

So hear me out, baby, and dry your eyes
I'd write it out, but it would just seem trite
I'm pulling out of here with holy spite
Tonight, tonight, alright, alright

Could we have one more shot for both our sakes?
Can we slow it down and give not take?
'Cause if you can't forgive me for my mistakes
My heart will break, my heart will break

We can't stay innocent if we just run and hide
No remedy for scars and tears you've cried
My mind would ease if you told me your heart
Won't change if you knew that I tried

No innocence if we just run and hide
No remedy for all those tears you cried
My mind's a mess 'cause you told me your heart's changed and
You don't know if I tried

2008-04-20T13:13:00.001+08:00

just try your best but don't be hopeful

so you won't be disappointed.

2008-04-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

You, you got me

Thinking it'll be alright.
You, you told me,
"Come and take a look inside."
You believed me,
In every single lie.
But I, I failed you this time

And it feels like tonight.

I can't believe I'm broken inside.
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you?
And it feels like tonight,
Tonight

whisper gently,

whisper softly they can hear them demons they'll charm you with their smile for awhile. i hope you're just playing you can't do this to us to me to her to him.

thanks to the rest that give hope.

2008-04-19T00:25:00.002+08:00

if you can't fight for the crest you wear if you don't play it out for the people out there if you don't play it for the team then you play for yourself because you've got the passion to keep on fighting and bleeding and winning and
you're the only one who knows why,
because no one else cares.

and now is not the time to quit, although everybody needs somebody and nobody is out there for you. and when you know you do and it can't it just doesn't let you go it hangs on it creates a vacuum it hurts and then you're stuck in nowhere.

but push on for life is how you fought it out and everybody won't remember you.
but only you know why,
because no one else cares.

and yes i miss you too i read it i'm sorry i've let it pass us i'll regret
and it's perhaps over and i don't know why.

and many others too i'm sorry forgive me
and that's all i know to do.

2008-03-10T18:49:00.002+08:00

Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
Heads on the science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin',
At numbers and figures,

Pullin' the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh on I rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' our tails,
Comin' back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.

2008-03-08T11:07:00.008+08:00

early morning
foggy skies rained cold raindrops
freezing breeze chill

yet i was alone
stone cold benches sat empty
dawn broke over the pristine horizon
but nothing broke the silence
for i still sat alone,
as light resurfaced from beneath the water

and it was all set and done, but you
weren't here.

2008-02-17T16:07:00.002+08:00

should your skies be dampened gray,
and if your heart be leadened weigh
know that they strike just this day.
let not the subtle shadows stray
but by glowing candlelight pray
in its gentle dancing ray

2008-02-17T10:28:00.002+08:00

The places you have come to Fear the most

2008-02-15T21:09:00.001+08:00

2008-02-15T00:50:00.004+08:00

Where am i (in you)?

Can't find you here
Where you used to beAnd you've left me alone
no goodbyes
All the roads that lead to you end in
Cold steel and hard concrete

Where are you?

2008-02-08T13:56:00.000+08:00

i shall post properly for once!

the tanglin game was good but i think i need my fitness up
so i've been running every spare day that i've got but i don't know whether to gym my back's constantly been giving me pains. b'div starts next week! tuesday ACS (I) international. they started playing rugby last year so we'll probably win by miles!
next friday might play damai sec, don't know if it's gonna be b'div or c'div, i'm hoping b cause c would be too easy! sec ones have come in and they are so uhm, amusing?

this wednesday went back to tns. we avoided the jam! so many teachers have left tns. ): but at least ms theng is still there haha! then we went for lunch thingum. dawn(jue ying)? followed us to jacks place for lunch haha. she's p6! she's tagging along with a batch 2 years older. was fun anyhow. mrted to pasir ris for donuts but there were none. annoying.

yesterday was visiting.. boring? i feel asleep too many times. but at least i got to read Mister God: this is Anna. which is, awesome. boring anyway. cny is boring boring boring.

maybe i should start blogging about class and school -.- and take pictures?
but my n73 is very annoying it went bonkers and i had to reset the phone, and lose all my messages and stuff. i was thinking i wanna trade it in for another simpler phone that's less delicate than this smartphone. sony ericsson perhaps?

that's it, service's on sunday this weekend.
today will be good!

2008-01-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

RI won Tanglin Trust 30/40+ to 7
3 tries, 3 conversions.
man of the match

need to work harder

find me six feet beneath my skin

2008-01-27T12:11:00.000+08:00

only one?
or none.
26/12/07,
forget December
it won't be better

28/1/07 Monday
RI C'div v.s Tanglin Trust C'div
4.30pm
(Not that anyone is gonna come though.)

sick, back/neck ache, head pain.

take me through the 9 rings of hell
ferry me to the mountain of 7 purgatory
and take me to the 9 spheres of heaven
lead me to my knees
to God.
-Divine Comedy, Dante

for so then i will see.

2008-01-13T18:03:00.000+08:00

The Beatles Fever

Some people walk away
Some people stay still

But what matters, are the ones
That walk with you

2008-01-12T09:46:00.000+08:00

today is saturday morning (: this means there's church today yay
anyhow, the absence from my blog is due to the newfound lack of leisure time haha. last weekend i couldn't blog cause 1. saturday had raffles trail, 2.sunday had church and work. anyways school has been good and this is going to be a lengthy post about my teachers and where i sit.

i sit, or used to sit right at the back, right corner. ALL THE WAY AT THE BACK. no crazy teacher would put me there hahahaha. but i moved myself to the front! now i sit with gerard in front second row in the centre. it's good cause i've decided to take my studies seriously! (and pass my chinese)

form+english teacher- mrs suhaimy
new teacher to ri, came from mjc and is very nice haha. but she thinks my hair is long when i've cut it so short! ):

math- mr jee
same as last year but good too cause i need a teacher whom i already know so i can approach him about my math (need to improve)

science- mr pang tze kiang
i don't exactly like him cause he's er, annoying and suffers slightly from broken wrist syndrome (gay) and likes to pick on me ): fcbc-goer

chinese- mr zhang mei suo
aiya what to do, same as last year. nvm i guess it's a good thing in a way cause i wanna change now haha.

philo- mr lim lit san
sadist? he says he likes to see people suffering and no smiling and no laughing in his class. and i think he isn't very nice

cle+ple- mr chow
he talks slow, and very properly too. boring x)

geog- mr aymie david
she married an ANGMOH! he used to be head of rugby and his moobs are bigger than her boobs. heheheh. and she's super bimbo, she botoxed her face to the max and her hair is blonde and she wears thick makeup, to SCHOOL.

but i'm class chairman HAHA.
but at least i do all my homework now right! x)

had cca tryouts the past few days/week. the sec ones are really tiny tots. extremely small!

yesterday, got my custom shoes but the paint got rubbed off in the rain ): darnn. gonna get a new canvas one now haha. and then we had training...

menaz has never performed well. has never made any break, has never scored any try, never tackle someone head on, never did what i told him to do. but yesterday he did EVERYTHING i told him to do, and he did better than i could ask. how fantastic is that! when i made a break only he and aliff were chasing. means uh, only he and aliff were working hard. menaz slipped and tripped and broke his wrist ): at least now his parents let him play

three cheers for menaz!

my back hurts though, stupid pt

gerard coming for church today!!! (: there will be a gerard and a gerade hahahaha

2008-01-01T10:55:00.000+08:00

these 2 days have been awesome awesome

sunday, went out with mummy to raffles city shopping mall but didn't get anything. we ate at swissotel too expensivee. went with my little brother, shenn too! he likes to be naughty and whine and be fussy and be spoilt. he's 3 (okay 4 this year).

monday, morning and afternoon went out with jingyi and yingx but they went to jingyi's house so i went back to ri haha. then went to watch i am legend! scary but i think there's not much plot but still there's a great horror feeling to it heheh. go watch it for scares. then they went school reunion. dump me again. stone in ri. then we all went for countdown and i hadn't eaten my dinner (who's fault ah!). countdown was at fcbc, expo

countdown party was great, albeit feeling abit extra. i think senior pastor khong from that church is funny but i don't like the chinese bits haha. nice songs played though! and then we ushered in the new year and i felt even more extra x)

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :D
MAY 2008 BE A BLAST.

AND HAPPY NEW YEAR MY NEW YEAR BABES! ;D

ting fang chua & cher hui jie

ting fang i wanna thank you for being an awesome sister in Christ for me and you've always been there and although we've drifted i hope things can get back. happy birthday!

hui jie probably knows me the longest for most of my friends and yeah although we've drifted alot i hope we can get back together k! happy birthday!

2007-12-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

cut hair. (skip skip skip)

rush off to cell lunch,
really loved it cause everybody was present and i got the time to really thank them for all they've done. got a cute keychain.

church service sermon was powerful and there was alot of praise and worship

sorry not in the mood to blog

selfish people.

2007-12-29T00:43:00.000+08:00

hello sorry for the wait, been away for too long (:
not been blogging properly, just song lyrics and un-understandable

today-
p6/06 gep of taonan batch reunion @ pasir ris park

kinda started out slow and sleazy, went out to bugis myself in the afternoon to get stuffies and got myself a purple shirt for both me and yingx, it says vespa, the tiny cute scooter. then hurried down the pasir ris to meet sherry hui jie ben john and jae. sherry looks so different i could hardly recognise her :/ must be the short hair eh haha. went over to the bbq pit (the place is very secluded) had to walk like, for ages just to reach the pit and it was supposedly near the playground ): i was hoping for the spiderweb and the swingy thing? oh forget it (:

then we had to meet the poor wholesaler who was fed misinformation by huijie and had to travel around thrice :/ but got the charcoal, food and everything, and ME, ME, ME, AND ME (basically) just me only got the fire going! :D though i think i overdid the charcoal it was so very in the end haha. then people started turning up! though all they did was talk when i told them to eat haha but i guess it's kinda a success cause, we had food, we ate, we had fun.

at 6 pm we called the teachers to ask them where they were, "on the way, very soon reach already" (direct translation from chinese sorry). but then at 8 we asked and got the same answer ._. so they turned up not too long later (: we had fun eating and laughing and bbqing the food and all, then the teachers came and we talked, i miss my teachers they are so awesome compared to like, secondary school teachers ):

so we talked, ate some more, then the teachers left. then we played virus and ice and water which is kinda retarded haha makes me feel like a little kid in those light blue shorts (:. and everybody insists im gay/womanly/girly WHY!? what rubbish. even if you like purple and pink don't mean you like guys. ha.

so that was about today and uh, no pictures rah forgot to take :/
tomorrow's gonna be well, cut hair (oh noooooo), contacts, katong laksa (yayy), church stuffums, and yep.

recapping this week will be uh, very difficult. this week feels very long. it felt like monday was ages ago (: but it was awesome, sunday and monday. and Christmas too

Christmas is not just christmas, or Christmas, it's Christ-mas. do you know what is Christmas? it's the day, that Jesus was born into the world to wash away all our sins, and that brought in the Holy Counselor and basically is the escence of our existence, for the Christians. It's about how God gives his only Son to die for us. Jesus died a sinner, and yet He was sinless. basically, it's not the season of giving presents it's the season of giving love, and sacrifice, for the greatest love is sacrifice. so please, know the real meaning. i'm sorry non Christians sometimes i don't see why you people celebrate Christmas.

anyway, Christmas was great all the while. last time i think, christmas, i think play computer i think food i think presents i think oversized shirts. now i think, *Christmas, i think of my Spiritual life, i think of my friendships, i think of my relationships, i think of my family and it is so wonderful (: but oh, that's one part,the other part is that i had very nice presents too (heheh).

monday was chc drama again, with yingx this time. she came to my place for dinner before service though. was awesome and the sermon was meaningful and struck me hard in the face :/ yeah so it was really awesome, especially the candles part :D

tuesday, went to liannes house! she got me presents and so did her mom. they're so awesome (: her family is so warm it's wonderful to just be in their presence, albeit awkward haha. then i had to go off to aunty's house, got my presents and saw my cute niece. and since that side of the family is the more Christian side it really felt good to be with them, especially with my Spiritual revival and stuff

wednesday went out airport to study with yingx and lianne. was very unfruitful. then went to bugis and was very daoish and stoney will not blog about it (:

thursday went to school in the morning zzz overslept haha. had to organize things for the first week of school (eh im now an important person k) was very rubbish, then went out with the ruggers and fooled around as usual, went to marina bay with lia and kr and jae. for a short while, then went to yingx's house for a short while and went to run too ow my soles hurt lousy canvas sneakers can't run in them.

i always tell myself, tomorrow will be better
somehowbut, remember?
(:

2007-12-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

sick and tired of i don't know, just don't want, whatever, maybe, anything, don't want, no, late replies, no replies, waiting for the phone for replies, waiting for calls, calling and no answer, rejected calls, sorry i'm talking to someone else, sorry go away, i don't trust you, "are you okay" "yeah, i'm fine can you please go away", putting down the phone in an unhappy manner, nothing, asking questions without responses, ignoring questions, rejection, failure, lack of faith, lack of judgment, lack of self discipline. just so sick and tired.

2007-12-27T00:55:00.000+08:00

Saviour i come,
quiet my soul.
bring me to my knees
bring me to the Cross
where your love pours out
Lord, i lay me down
rid me of myself
i belong to You

stop keeping away

(or was it me?)

2007-12-18T08:53:00.000+08:00

"go run a lap and think about what you've done"

maybe i'll take twelve.

2007-12-16T01:20:00.000+08:00

Luke 17:3
If your brother sins, rebuke him.
If your brother repents, forgive him.

Luke 17:4
If he sins against you seven times in a day, and seven times comes back to you and says, ' I repent', forgive him.

The Bible is what it says I am, it tells me what I can do.
The Bible says it is, and it will be.

so there is still hope (:

2007-12-11T23:23:00.000+08:00

Praise You in This Storm

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

2007-11-25T00:53:00.000+08:00

miss¹
v. missed, miss·ing, miss·es

v. tr.

To fail to hit, reach, catch, meet, or otherwise make contact with.
To fail to perceive, understand, or experience: completely missed the point of the film.
To fail to accomplish, achieve, or attain (a goal).
To fail to attend or perform: never missed a day of work.
1. To leave out; omit.
2. To let go by; let slip: miss a chance.
To escape or avoid: narrowly missed crashing into the tree.
To discover the absence or loss of: I missed my book after getting off the bus.
To feel the lack or loss of: Do you miss your family?

2007-11-20T01:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Anne&Sarah! :]

2007-11-13T22:38:00.001+08:00

Now we’re broken on the floor,
She just wants me to share her.
It hasn’t been this way before,
She just wants me to dare her.

The phone rings (The phone rings),
And she screams:
"Stab my back,
It’s better when I bleed for you.
Walk on me,
There never was enough to do."

I can’t get past her,
Falling faster,
It's true.
It hasn’t done a lot for you.

And every time he held you close,
Yeah, were you thinking of me?
When I needed you the most,
Well I hope that you’re happy.

The phone rings (The phone rings),
When she screams:
"Stab my back,
It’s better when I bleed for you.
Walk on me,
There never was enough to do."

I can’t get past her,
Falling faster,
It's true.
It’s better when I bleed for you.

[INSTRUMENTAL SOLO]

I hope that love he gave you,
Was just enough to save you.
You nearly broke my heart,
Just look at what you’re tearing apart!

Stab my back,
It’s better when I bleed for you.
Walk on me,
There never was enough to do.

I can’t get past her,
Falling faster,
It's true.
It hasn’t done a lot for you.

It’s better when I bleed for you.
It never was enough to do.
It hasn’t done a lot for you.

2007-11-12T10:07:00.001+08:00

should have gone. should have gone. should have gone. should have gone. should have gone.

rrrr.

should have gone.

sorry bro.

2007-11-12T10:03:00.000+08:00

There's always something in the way
There's always something getting through but it's not me it's you
It's you

Sometimes ignorance rings true but hope is not in what i know
It's not in me
Me
It's in you
It's in you

It's all I know
It's all I know
It's all I know

I find peace when I'm confused
I find hope when I'm let down
Not in me
Me
In you
It's in you

I hope to lose myself for good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me
Me
In you
In you*

It's all I know
It's all I know
It's all I know

In you
In you
It's in you
In you

There's always something in the way
There's always something getting through but it's not me it's you
It's you
It's you
It's you
It's you
(It's all I know)
It's you
(It's all I know)
It's you
(It's all I know)
It's you
(It's all I know)
It's you
(It's all I know)

2007-11-04T11:13:00.001+08:00

hello.. haven't blogged in.. ages ._.

the last time i blogged was almost a month ago today is the 4th of november which means it's the holidays! :D

ok recap recap

been having trainings? as usual train and get sunburnt cause the weather's so hot ): coach wanted training to start at 6am in the morning crazy lah!!! he said the weather was too hot then he get cranky -.- anyway there isn't any sun at 6am you can't even see anything, anyway. training starts tomorrowww.

final report.. got lowest in class k sigh ._. i think it's just certain subjects like *ahem* chinese and math that pulled me down alot.. but somehow people like john get 4.0 for it while i'm trying to claim that it's a difficult subject.. maybe i'm not cut out for it, but nevermind! i have holiday plans to study :D anyways my chinese is 35% so just nice 1.6gpa hrmpf. hist is 4.0 eng sci is 3.6 k... see these subjects not bad.. i think geog's 3.6 too

class shirt. major. pissy. thingumo. grr. got it in the end and it's a size too big LAASFSDSF must go get bigger then can wear next year

after exam activities= staying in class to play rubiks cube, watch simpsons, chinese movies, or go and read chinese books. absolutely rubbish that's why i ponned 5++ days of school in total after eoys d: i seriously overslept ok! too lazy to wake up

can solve the rubiks cube haha but i take so long -_-'

AND WHY IN THE WORLD AM I IN THE HEAD OF THE INTER CLASS TAG RUGBY COMPETITION 08?!!!???!!!?? RAH, I DIDN'T AGREE YOU JUST VOLUNTEERED ME. I DON'T EVEN WANNA PLAY TAG!!!

okay now to the more substantial stuff..
this year, recapping i realised i wasted much of the first half ++ of the year.. i didn't study, i didn't revise i wonder what i was doing other than nothing. ): if i had the chance i'd definitely do it better! rah. nevermind that's why sec1 is just a play play year i'll do better next year. and looking back too our class isn't that bad.. other than youjun sitting in front of me giving me the urge to always bully him.. not too bad.. maybe bernard and his gayness.. but maybe that just adds to the environment of the classroom (:
still trying to upload my class pictureee.
can't upload the 13mb one so i will just upload the lousier one

church has been good.. enjoyable service and a really friendly cell! :) thankyou weeqin jie for bringing me here :D :D :D lianne came by for service ytd she liked it too but she was damn blur hahaha. she had to go for a dinner so our cell left to celebrate felix's, terri's & sherri's bdayy at a kopitiam at geylang. GEYLANG. rah! i was trying to wash my hand, but whenever i released the button on the tap, the water immediately stopped so i was kinda flustered.. then this dude... walked over and pressed the button for me and leaned super close to me and went.. for you AND HIS FACE WAS SUPER CLOSE MINE! i was like EH THANKYOU THANKYOU *runs*. he was quite well dressed and good looking i guess.. he looked rich.. but then he walked past our table and went.. "eh handsome boy!" and winked at me fbsajsfahfasfasf. i was freaked the entire night and took to hiding behind huimin.

i'm still trying to remember the past events of great significance. :/

i went to watch the dark is rising with yingx on wednesday! at vivo! which is a double ! and we ____ ___ _____ ______ which i can't say now or spoil the surprise (: but it's such a creative idea it's so creative i think i thought of it. eh but i did anyway right? haha.. i liked the movie but it's hard to understand if you haven't read the book (like me) but you still get the main plot and it's worth watching! next movie: stardust, game plan BRING ME OUT SOMEBODY

outing with ruggers.. vivo for superdog then went to minitoons! haha then we went to the beach to play around and me and nian'en left for home but the rest went to marine parade library and then went to bennet (b1)'s houseee. not fairrrr. tkgs girls are lian man.. hahaha

i want to dye my hair brown (just brown like hazel pure brown y'know) but daddy doesn't let me ): i'm still wondering when i should cut my hair. heh d: but i want to dye most of all....

was supposed to go haziq's house for hari raya but CMI, mom want to go out. sorry bro..

okay that's it! i'll blog when other big stuff come out and i'll try to blog more frequently for the matter.. ciao! :]

2007-10-13T11:06:00.000+08:00

well i haven't blogged in ages i'm sorry!!!

oh hmm been feeling more free and have been going out more often haha

before eoys : study out! yoshi is ours hahasleeepwaye is being vain and lianne is being angry and kevin is being hardworking
she thinks she's taller o.o"
size contrast! x)star siblings!! :D [i look really weird]

want to fight ahpeace out! in lianne's SMALL RED jacket! hahaha

and yingx always manages to capture the gay shots of me ._. oh wells

thursday: end of eoys!

eoys were okay, so i guess except for math and chinese and geog
the rest are fairly okay

thursday: went out erh walk/shop with tingliayingxrubshao to orchard.. and yeah i can't remember haha i saw sam's sister (not sure which though) and it was fun and then we went to shao's house
where we promptly fell asleep on the sofa ._. post eoy stress trauma release program. then they told eh no didnt tell but i can't remember but her house is nice with lots of plants! :]

friday: hj's house, emo longkang again and lots of rain! haha we went to walk but it started raining ): and we watched BALLS OF FURAAAYYYEEE. DAMN FUNNY! :D:D but coarse humor so yeah.. hahahaha. and hmm sherry has great analytical skills

saturday: went to join E30 CHC cell and go for service. cell was excellent i learn ALOT ALOT of true stuff from it and so was service :] sorry God i've been backsliding time to come back to You. and yeah i cried haha (:

sunday-tuesday morning: CLASS CHALETTTTTT!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO

sunday, escape theme park, WAS DAMN FUN HAHAHAHHA! i was always scared to take the rides cause im very very prone to motion sickness and thus resulted in being a pussy and taking little kiddy 40second rides and screaming my ass off hahahahaha! we took it 4 times. then we went karting too! i remember speeding past changrui and he had this super o: scared look on his face x) haha oh and nol being left handed, thought the brakes were on the right. actually its opposite. so when it was time to stop to avoid hitting gerard, he accelerated his ass off. and when you're supposed to stop in the pit, he accelerated right into greg... well done! then we went to the loch ride thingy and i didn't want my hair to get wet (YESSSS) and my clothes so i sat in front and bought a poncho SORRY CHANGRUI XD. but when we were sliding down i was so scarede i let go of the hood and the wind swept it back and my hair... got wet ._. and we went to take the bloody #%#@! teacup ride thing and they didn't stop it for 3 times in a row ._. damn i couldn't walk. then wenjun say aeroplane very nice go go not scared no giddy i take already, cannot walk properly cannot even talk properly. XD then i went to buy ONE bottle of breezers. (alcohol drink)

then we went for dinner ourselves, but instead of playing XBOX like everyone else was doing, i hit the beach haha :] was feeling emoishywashy and needed time to think about stuff im so glad that He guided me to do what i had to do. but the beach is really nice at 12am-2am+ :] quiet.

slept... woke up at 12 went for breakfast...
monday: went to WWW! but it rained so we went in late. WWW translate to WILD WILD WET, or WOW WOW WOW! hahaha but it rocked ;) we went to sit the slides so many time! we love the ULARLAHH!! hahaha brandon keeps pointing _|_ to the camera -_- but fun! the wave pool drived me nuts. ._. and there was the yakult bottle hahaha :D changrui is scared of water ._.
this is the most enjoyable part of the whole chalet trip!

that night went to buy. 4-6 bottles of breezers (cant rmbr) and i drank all of it and went high. i kept waving to random people and started laughing at weird stuff oh and i don't remember i was nuts.

then today i woke up with this @*(@#$% headache and my appetite is rubbish ._. so blame alcohol! hahaha

mum dragged me to orchard in my lousy attire after lunch at simei ): wthhh can i dress so weird and i bumped into so many people hahaha but i got my shoes i lost at the chalet.. :]

so that's how stuff's been i'll try to steal pictures haha

2007-10-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

thank you for making my day :]
times 12419481925981258912598152times unseeable cause its too many to count!

2007-10-08T19:37:00.000+08:00

mr boon is leaving ): okay no not "mr boon is leaving ):" MR BOON IS LEAVING! WHOOHOOO!!!!! :D.

erhm...? no idea ><
zi xiang you loser! even nol says so!

zixiang er looking rather happy..? and paojung

waye and whazzisnamebigguyfrom1k?

say yo,
get stoned.

zixiang paojung nol swadhi-say what?oh sorry- pong no sorry nol swudhiwudipong (crap wrong..) waye clementernestwhatever?

pictures were taken before the disastor of eoys
so we all smiled! :]

2007-10-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt alone,
in love?

- Standing Still Jewel
Do you want me?
Like i want you.

Or am i standing still
Beneath the darkened sky

Or am i standing still
With the scenery passing by

Or am i standing still
Out of the corner of my eye

Or are you,
Passing me by?

2007-09-30T17:08:00.000+08:00

this post is dedicated to all ya'll hard muggers out there

and yes my blog is on hiatus till the end of eoys :/

to relieve exam stress..

you can always kick some balls!
haha okay just kidding no but that's what i've been up to after school these days before going off to study/home.

"and waye scores a conversion for another 2 points for raffles!"

And when you're just too bored in class and you don't get what the teachers saying and the fly's buzzing around your ear and oh you are just so damn bored and sleepy,

just take out an apple and munch it! keeps the teachers away.
okay not really so mr jee confiscated the apple and put it on the whiteboard ledge but he didnt let me take pictures aww :/

and this is mrchong, who also stole john's poor apple....

actually john only eats his apples in mr jee's lesson
it's been a rather humorous trend
cos mr jee always manages to confiscate john's apple but it's always eaten halfway

anyway who eats apples in maths!?!??!!

haha exams are driving me nuts i end up watching james bond
and i think pierce brosnan is the best james bond ever haha

OKAY, i need to focus focus focus
eoys eoys eoys eoys eoys eoys go shoo

2007-09-23T10:43:00.000+08:00

God why're you crying ):

tell me it's okay
Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would bring me back to you
That someday it would bring me back to you

2007-09-19T22:02:00.001+08:00

i didn't even complete one single whole question for my math ta im so dead ahhh

and no more rugby trainings for like 4 weeks? ahhh

dieeee...

stomachflu some more
:/

2007-09-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

hello! let me update you :D
loads of pictures!

life of Secondary 1J/07 Raffles Institution.

First up,

I'm Gay, It's Okay.
sudden spark of gay controversies

oh btw there is a gay teacher in RI, teaching science.
he goes by Otto Fong,
damn he's one brave dude and i respect him
and he's really nice too
well gay isn't about being a pervet, it's just a sexual preference that you are born with
(OH I'M GAY I'M NOT PROTECTING MYSELF)
but there's nothing wrong with people who can control their *ahem* horniness *ahem* in public and whatsoever.

doesn't mean that there's something wrong with your *ding dongs* and *down there* means there's something wrong with your *up there* and you wanna go around raping all the doods in the world, especially the kids (in RI) so please do not discriminate against gays.

contradictorily these pictures depict scenes of gays (in a negative manner)

(ALL THESE ARE JUST FOR LAUGHS)

"I'm Gay, It's Okay"
(this gay is the type that just makes you shiver, not that they are homosexual. they are just... (whats the word) oh i think its gay)
whoo sexy pose. -mr BOON!

btw that is my rather weird geog teacher! he has a triangular butt!
"oooh ... i wonder what he's looking at"-you jun+ mr BOON!
"oooh darling let me have a go at it please! just once just once!" (rubiks cube lah) -Shawn and You Jun!

"baby look what i've done!" -Shawn and You Jun!

and that's the end of the "Gay" section!

now it's time for the weird looks and all section!

introducing..
xinming, 100% made in china.

"Very durebla, last very very long." -Xin Ming

he's actually a nice dude lah, no really.
compared to the some other china people. XINMING ROCK ON!!!!

Random Shots

"I'm Not Sleepy Sir!"
"Yawn" -Wen Jun!

"Yawn 2" -Wen Jun!

Stretch! -Wen Jun!

moving on to the:

"Want to Fight Ah?"

stare until got doublechin some more.. -Sheng Yi!

whoaa.. scary -PaoJung!

"shh boonking! i'm trying hard to look fierce and not laugh here!" -brandon and boonking!

"What I Go To School For"

"with or without pants, i wonder what he's doing."-gregory!

Me and my all time homie, JOHN

"What I Do During Geog" -john and my ipod!

oh and goodnight! i have math TA tomorrow wish me luck i haven't even studied bleah.
will post more tomorrow, this is the end of my rather lame post..
goodnight!

2007-09-11T23:21:00.001+08:00

S is for Shanxi,
S is for Superhero!

2007-09-08T00:26:00.000+08:00

Spongebob's ma homie.
but he ain't belong on a man's ass

heh okay random but today was a really really great like 102%ish good day
and its one of the best things that has happened to me in a long while
and it has assured me that sweet happy surprises do happen once in a while
and very very nice people still live [:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANXI :] it's 12.30am!
so yes it IS your birthday!

okay so this morning i rushed off to soph's house thinking i was horribly late as my mom forced me to take care of my annoying brother for quite a long time and he hid my pants ._.
i reached soph's house earlier than amanda and i was complaining that i was going to be late.
woops.

so i just lazed around waiting for amanda to come and then we baked the cake! (WE, not ME)
so yes it was an idiotproof chocolate fudge brownie extremely sweet cake with egg and everything!
then they made me wear an apron and take a picture of me saying it was me who baked to cake :/
okay lah maybe bakings not too bad but its not my thing cookings much better :D next time you can take a picture of me cooking i dont mind i guess

then we went up and prepared the decorations in the cool loft in soph's room,
like:
the balloons with S H A N X I and hearts :D
the gigantic card!
the big big throne!
the ribbons and candles
the cake!

haha then we surprised her by blindfolding her and then opening the blindfold and i acted as richmond. bleh.

then we ate and had truth and dare thingy and so paiseh soph's mom went inside the room thingy when er nvm! hah okay but it was really fun can you please dare me more often and extend the time limit thingy? x) okay heh

then we played waterballoons and we got all wet and stuff and we discovered shanxi always squabbles with me for some nogood reason hurh. and we poured ICE WATER all over shanxi heh revenge for wetting me eh :P

then we all changed and had dinner and we all left (:

it was still wonderful
yay i have wonderful friends!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANXI! :]

then i went to raffles hotel for dinner
which was supposed to be exactly last week, 31/8/07
my baby brother's 3rd birthday!
no pictures though sorry!
but he fell sick last week that's why its today
yay i ate till i was super full :D

so today was a good day

but i hope the rumors will stop because they are not true :]
goodnight world

ilu!

2007-09-07T11:22:00.000+08:00

Somebody wants you,
Somebody needs you.
Somebody dreams about you every single night.
Somebody cant breathe, without you its lonely.
Somebody hopes that someday you will see, that somebody's me.

-Enrique Iglesias "Somebody's Me"

2007-09-06T17:38:00.000+08:00

OH HEH
RI IS GONNA INTRODUCE RUGBY TO:
tao nan
nan yang
st hildas
henry park

HOPEFULLY.
thats is so damn cool!

2007-09-06T16:42:00.000+08:00

hello people!
yesterday was a happy day,
happier than most of my other more recent days at least

in the morning...
i had training, was really cool and everything we learnt how to wrestle!
how to takedown, how to armlock, how to keylock, how to strangle
basically we learnt how to fight, as in brawl
yeah cool huh
now i can kill somebody :P
well that was a major improvement from going into rucking and tackling so early yeah :D

then, me and jae went to hj's condo to study.
we ate at macs and bought this kiddy mcmeal thingy or whatever its called for hj's little little brother and it was a PURPLE, UNICORN. how manly! it had silvery long hair too!
so we went upstairs and her brother was scared of me and jae and sherilyn he went "omg jie why your friends so big" to hj. heh he's really cute!
so we went to study but we played table soccer thingy.
AND I MET THIS VERY VERY VERY CUTE PERSON
be jealous people.
he's my new brother
he's angmoh
(girls please ~~dont~~ drool!)

his hair is floofly and he has this straight fringe and cool blue eyes (:
his name is LEE LEO , brother of LEE WAYE! :D
[yes im still botak and my hair is still fugly]

then we went upstairs and back down to play basketball! that was around 6 or so, but her parents decided to let us stay and even bought dinner for us but jae went home. weezheng is really really cute heh

and there's a big big swimming pool with many er i mean good scenery you know water and the sea and everything! there's this big canal thingy and its like a river i call it the emoriver :D
i call it the emoriver cause when you look from hj's room there're little twinkling lights in the water and it looks emo especially during twilight :P
its like a hotel! its darn nice i wanna go back again!

then we just lazed around and studied and thats all for yesterday but it was really really fun and happy (:

today is boring was supposed to go to marine parade to study but its too darn crowded so i stay home and bum and do nothing at all ! :/ oh and anyway i hope i can go tomorrow :D

bye bye
oh and the previous post isn't by me,
REALLY.
._.

2007-09-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

i'm a super hot rugger who lovessss pink!
and no im not gay D:

TO-ALLY!
being bimb is fun, man!

hijacked!

2007-09-04T11:49:00.000+08:00

i made myself an egg omelet and cheese sausage and toast so i'm a ~~happy~~ happier boy!

yesterday had training in the morning
was good, fun, productive training
and my standard hasn't dropped maybe even improved!
it wasn't tiring at all :D

then i went to watch rush hour 3 with jae karthik and shirui.
bangla~~desh~~DASH
heh its a funny show! but the plot sucks i'd recommend something else maybe bourne or the rat show if you like a nicer plot
but it still gave me loads of laughs

then i felt really ":/" on the train and just sat there and closed my eyes but i didn't fall asleep and i walked home in the stupid effing heavy rain for reasons unknown when i could've taken bus, or ran through the rain.

and i haven't started studying

"Waye, whats wrong?"

2007-09-02T20:46:00.000+08:00

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting everytime

"Waye, are you okay?"

2007-09-01T13:09:00.000+08:00

31/8/07 is a date to remember

1. its my baby brother's birthday! happy third(belated) birthday shenn :D be less naughty okay!

2. teacher's day!

3. d: not for you to know

anyway it was my baby brother's birthday and we were supposed to go out for dinner but he unfortunately fell sick today >): how very unlucky. We couldn't go for dinner roar i was looking forward to buffet. he still gets to stayover at sentosa chalet from tomorrow till tuesday while i stay at home ._.

teachers day! the celebrations in school were really funny! they were spastic and funny. haha sshhhhspray! then we were released early and we cabbed to tns! they were having a bball match, teacher's against the bball team.. hmm the tns bball team isn't that bad. then my juniors played captains ball and i sorta joined in but i spent more time mixing around with all my old friends. they all look so different now! joshuadanielsironggabrielscarletcelineweiningmarcusaarongerald so many lah can't name all! haha
then after all that there was performance, but mesherryhjjae went to buy lunch for ms theng and mrs tan [: so we didn't watch any performance at all how sad ._.
after performance we went into the staffroom to meet up all the old teachers
we were supposed to go to east coast with the teachers but they had prelim markings :'(
so the batchmates went off to parkwayparade to eat lunch! i was so hungry i ate a plate of kway teow and another plate of duck rice o.o'

then we all split and went our ways.
i went mine

and i went somewhere and it was great fun and great memories and all [:
i pray to see you soon.
and i hope my nightmarish dreams,
never, ever, come true.

because you know we love each other
and there's no need to be shy anymore (:
<3

2007-08-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

geog see see tee was a killer :/
i absolutely did not understand 80% of what they were talking about.
whats the difference between knoll and hill both are short lah!
and col saddle pass not like you're gonna walk through them right!
._.'

then when i was going to the toilet during assembly mr yap came to me and said... "waye do you know who's the sec1 rugby captain for the previous matches?" with the eyebrow moving thing that is so ckp man. i'm like, "yeah me". how very awkward
._.'

it seems mr yap enjoys scolding people, he likes lecturing a few of them in a group after like mass assemblies and stuff. how very annoying! haha anyway yeah he talked to me about why i have the SJI shirt i stole it from someone on the day of the match at SJI bla bla bla. basically he's being nosy and annoying. so i had a very very very long lecture and was late for chinese oral and had to make jae wait. sorry jae!

then was chinese oral, IMPROMPTU SPEECH ROCKS :D haha i didn't even prepare i just tore a page outta xiao du ze thing and read it out x) then i rushed off with jae to S-11
S-11 has NICE NICE PRAWN MEE! its the first shop from the right! (excluding drinks, i think!) not the handmade U-mian big prawn noodle ya, the big prawn, prawn mee! haha it was fantastic (:

then took 55 straight all the way to tao nan/marine parade library to go study and see the teachers, so at first there weren't any teachers so we went to the library and i met,
soph! haha she was leaving already so we just said hi bye and very little other stuff and she left already [: it's kinda cool i keep meeting her around the east, parkway and marine parade. haha
then we studied for awhile then decided to go to tao nan to study cause it was far too crowded and noisy!

we studied, then some p1s and p2s came by the canteen and they were so cute and small! reminded me of my younger childhood so cute yay x) so we studied, and studied then decided to call ms theng again! this time she was there and we went upstairs to talk to her yay!

we talked for quite long, like from 6.15-7 and it was really nice and i realised she's more than just a teacher to me already (: she's no nice lah heh

then me and jae left tao nan, and i took bus home. two small vs boys were sitting behind me they were VERY annoying, such that i thought they were GIRLS when i heard their high voice! ._. so very irritating.

that's all today, i have:
animal farm speech
math assignment
philo assignment

left to do! [:
ttyl ;)

2007-08-27T17:55:00.000+08:00

sunshine in my life
(:

2007-08-26T13:48:00.000+08:00

i theenk these theengs are rubbish but haha i still did them, okay i only did one

You Are 51% Feminine, 49% Masculine

You are in touch with both your feminine and masculine sides.
You're sensitive at the right times, but you don't let your emotions overwhelm you.
You're not a eunuch, just the best of both genders.

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

hmm me more feminist? i have no idea
anyway i will mug for geog, prepare my animal farm and chinese presentation. (:
not too much?
then there's eoys..
today will be a boring day

but at least its raining
gives me the gloominess to think about some things
(:

2007-08-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

hello today's training was rather wet and muddy and smelly and not so comfortable but oh well (: i've got my wanderers academy jersey and its cool! its red and has this sprinting figure at the front.
i was feeling real sleepy and fell asleep in the afternoon, piggy me.

i've been watching rugby and some css tonight
maybe cause i haven't really been watching but ben did sing abit better but yeah you know the audience appeal for shawn.. its all part of this competition so people rooting for ben don't be too crestfallen, he's still got a darn good future from now on

and zhen ning yeah she's my senior in my sister school
i think yeah keely sang better, she's older (:
but you still have quite a good future from now with the sing and dance
it's already a good start from like, 15!
jiayou!

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darlin' who knew

i wonder about next year, the team and everything
or rather i worry,
now it seems the team seems to be whole, like i've found a footing
when you think of a team mate, you think of his position immediately and how he's suited for it
now i can't say, but perhaps its still too early
[:

meanwhile its hard for me..
D:
it's still a part of me

My darlin' my darlin' who knew
My darlin' I miss you
My darlin' who knew

Who knew

i love you

2007-08-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

i've got my converse canvas sneakers!
and wore my pink socks of course (:

today was looking forward to the 1on1 talk but there wasn't time rhys had to leave early.. :/
ohwells next week then..
today had supershortday! then i went to cybercafe to LAN around with jordaan shirui jovan wai chung dexter i think thats all [:
was fun!
then rushed back to RI for cca but we just lazed around kicked (rugby) balls walked talked went to watch POETRY (you say!) SLAM!
so many girls x.x like all CHIJtp and DHS and i dunno, girls! why does RI wanna host these :/
and and i met CHAN CALVIN CHAN CALVIN CHAN CALVIN CHAN CALVIN!
my prisch bestfriend!

he looks mostly the same
short skeeny thinny specsys voiceneverbreakish
but his hair is different! its oily and flat now
but he still hasnt broken his voice yet :/
haha and he's got BRACES !

then went home with ziq and sherry
rambutan head o.o"

okay byebye(: dinner is calling mee

lock all memories of you
and keep it safe

2007-08-21T18:01:00.000+08:00

things are better now
it's right now.

but it's a different me now..
maybe i will never be the me you used to know.
oh and anyway

i've decided to go to church and stuff as soon as possible but i haven't really decided which and i wouldn't mind anyone inviting me(:
today was interhousetagrugby was sian, moor lost and russel's innit.-__-'
trying to get talent into next year's team.. big malay guy can sprint hell

and yesterday was the prize presentation was weird there was only one line of RI ruggers the rest were from different schools.. acsi won saints through small mistakes.. ah well i've got my 3rd placing trophy now, not too bad a start.

today wasn't a good start, was almost late father was angry .. ahh.. i had to run. backpain

and thankyou to all the people
who were there for me
i don't wanna name, you know who you are (:
and thank you someone

i miss you, i love you
always

2007-08-20T20:52:00.000+08:00

it's time, to leave it all behind
let it slip away, start everything fresh

it's time, i took what i've learnt,
when i sacrificed it wasn't enough

it's time, i realize there are just so little people
who are really there, all for you

God it's time i embraced you
because there was never anything more right

You'd love me for who i am
accept me and change me
never demanding always true
be everything i really needed
something i realized i can never, ever find
in someone i know.

maybe it's just the pain of realization,
or maybe i should've started it earlier when i first thought of it
or when i thought i saw what i needed when i was about to shut myself off
it's hard

and to all those who stoodfast, and listened, and helped, and most importantly, loved me
i thank you all.

and you, you really didn't know me, or listened or tried to understand. no.
and thats why i'm turning to You now to guide the way.
its just that too little things are true.
too little
and life takes it all away

its now over to You
guide me

2007-08-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

i'm losing it
i'm losing myself
it's all gone.

i've lost it
i've lost everything.
it's all gone

&God;
i pray, i pray.
keep me with you

2007-08-18T18:54:00.002+08:00

broken;
this fragile thing now
and i can't,
i can't pick up the pieces.

made my mistakes;
let you down
and i can't,
i can't hold on for too long

ran my whole life;
on the ground
and i can't,
i can't get up when you're gone

and so;
i let you know,
i let you know
you are my only one,
my only one
my only one.

only one-yellowcard

went out with aravin russel ashraf fauzan hanbin wank
to lan! played dota and i owned -_- cause they all didn't know how to play
and CS, which left me dizzy! then went to bk to eat some food.
i thing these kinda outings are waste time :/ get more people lah!

sickness getting better now no pain already.. but had but headache and noseache this morning :/

&after all i just wanted to be there for you
don't leave me
don't ever leave me

2007-08-18T00:04:00.000+08:00

hello hello i'm back again
with a new blogskin! i hope people don't find it gay i find the robots kinda cute

well happy birthday shao!
:D

haha and, theres words being blocked by the stupid blogger navibar thingy grr i wanna take it off and i don't know how, someone tell me? just drop a tag or something(: thanks!

goodnight!

2007-08-17T19:36:00.000+08:00

hey people
today was RI vs ACS(B) and we triumphed to steal the 3rd place!
won by 17-13
yay us :D
scored one, brought it from 10-17.
oh wells my sick condition didn't really help my playing but i still played without regrets congrats waye :D
i wanna thank ya seniors for this year, was really awesome
byebye season cya 08.
revenge!

tomorrow is nature hike pfft so siaaan!
haha shall walk like a snail

sunday will study with ting at airport
todaaay will not be forgotten! haha x)
i am tired shall go now byee!

2007-08-15T20:07:00.000+08:00

hello blogger
i am sick, sick like flu sick not brain dead
my nose keeps leaking and i kept sneezing and kept tearing the whole day :/
it was such an unwantedful experience i had it just recently like a few months back pooh now i have it again!
like totally!!

haha well today math cct was too distracted by my flu and i couldn't really focus oh gosh i'm gonna do badly i think :/
skipping school tomorrow, cause too sick wanna rest for fridaaay.

todayy didnt train i am so sick shall eat rest sleep like totally piggy.
pooh peace out.

2007-08-14T21:31:00.001+08:00

todaaayayaye.
was an eventful and happy and fun fun day. and nice and i had a good day thankyou world (:

yesterday was a horrible horrible monday.
with the monday blues
and the monday loss.
revenge >:D

well anyway todaaay.
didnt really do PE, but teachers kinda joined in. FUN OKAY, i box kick the teacher run like crazy! and he can sprint real fast! woah but my pulled hamstring made me cannot sprint properly (i look like a kangaroo jumping on one leg trying to sprint)so i played in uniform and did some play making! oh yeah pe in uniform doesnt go cause your shirt will stick to you and there are rjc girls around so yeah.
like totally bleah

then there was rythmic performance by some Brazilian percussion group. okay saying they were brazillian is wrong, more playing brazillian themed percussion! hoho, they can drum like crazy man.

thennn, went for lunch @ mos cause kevinjaerichmond went to longjohnsilvers and i dont wanna be fat and oily like the fish! pfft. haha yeah so i ate with shirui fujie and someguyfromsthildas wassisnameah?

then i went to bishan library to study. it was so crowded i couldnt find a spot anywhere in the upper section! lastresort-childrens section.

i had some good studying there for quite long, till some lady came up to me with this WEIIIIIIIIRD LOOK and she stared at me for like 8 seconds then went superfastly : "doyouknowthatyouareNOT! allowed to study in the childrens sectionpleaseleaveNOW! wehaveputposters up before." yeah thats the weird speed and tone.

so i went upstairs and voila someone vacated the seat just as i walked past and i plonked myself down and started doing work again.
till till 4.10pm? then i took the train to meet ting and selene to study at whitesandslibrary liketotallyt!(:

lia wrote me a LETTER! like the first dunno maybe second or third or fourth or BUT THE ONE OF THE MOST RECENT ONES letters in a long long time! :D thankyou haha. but some parts are slightly eligible i had to turn my head/card around to read and still did not understand till selene translated for me. pooh why would i like edward hes like a dude and hes a vampire but maybe vampire girls are hotter oh wells. normal girls are still normal and more likable without having to worry they'd bite you or something. oh and my blogskin is gay too (according to loads of people) so i will change it soon! nice blue ibanez guitar in fronto the cardee. haha darn nice yo :D
letters are fuuuun but since they're all from girls i find it hard to write back =/ will try but my handwriting is abit uhm. off?
liketotally :
thankyou again!

then then we reached the library and we sat down at the TEEEEEEEEENY childrens bench to study. oh okay we sat on the floor and used to bench as a table. AND I DIDNT GET CHASED OUT! :D haha i can't believe i can teach ting math. or anyone for that matter. hmm maybe i'm just refreshed cause i just started revising. ohwells, cct is tomorrow.
studying out with friends is simply productive! haha well yeah quite!
and its fun if you've got anything to ask its real easy and convinient (:
i wanna go back there the hot chocolate is so weird cause the chocolate solidifies and i just eat it like its... chocolate! after i've drunk all the liquid anyways
LIKE TOTALLY YEAH STUDYING IN GROUPS

haha then i came home and ate superlongly and now i have to rush RE and/or revise for math but will do the latter and ignore the previous one. oh wells im so damn busy with this competition and ccts and theres RE. cheekan pok lah.

math math tomorrow. hist hist day after. OH YEAH MY SCIENCE YTD WAS POSTPONED TO NEXT THURSDAY. LIKE TOTALLY~

sorry the like totally and awesome in bimb tones are my newcatchphrase inspired by someonewhoshallnotbesaid.okay i can't remember who lah

LIKE TOTALLY!
someone has not been angry with me!
thankyou haha (:

today is a good day
LIKE TOTALLY!
byeee.

2007-08-13T20:48:00.001+08:00

we lost to acsi, pfft.
i played like so crappy okay! i missed the number 8/7 like 102431251297421984152874214921841298421984712895 times totally pfft.
well yeah my tackling and decision making has stepped up. that tiny bit.
i didn't even get to play ball -_-'

acs are CHEAP.
they like to play real dirty. even when they're going down they gotta do stuff like twist people's neck or hit the balls or just well violate the rules ._. high tackling is included too.

well that sums up c'div this year no? lost at semis, against AC barker on friday lai lai. will play with no regret.
basically, i will promise myself to play without any regret to put in my all. i spend too much time regretting need to spend more time making myself not regret!
haha i saw some rgs seniors today x)
okay random shh they smile at me when i look at them

didn't take science cct today, so will take at a later date. MORE TIME TO STUDY LIKE TOTALLY TOTALLY AWESOME! (bimbo tone!)

pfft im so tired i shall sleep really soon like now totally yeah.

goodnight world! (:
no more regrets

2007-08-12T18:03:00.000+08:00

hello hello hello this is a rushy post!
yeah well i guess i'll be skipping CCTs
LUCKY OR WHAT!!:D more time to REVISE
huraye!

um yesterday i went to look for studs for that horrible horrible lost studs.
went all around peninsula plaza and shopping centre looking for it. terrible terrible i went looking around so many places, and then i finally found it
just one packet costs $30!!
pfft. i am bankrupt now i can only buy one pair of shorts :/

then i went home and cooked myself dinner then went to my auntys house for tuition... she teaches good math! :D now i understand the topic much better... muhauhahaha

today i studied, and guess what
i studied and you know what else?
i studied!
yeah well i studied.

and i am studying so its kinda boring pooh.
i'm kinda nervous about tomorrow, slightly. i've never been to yjc okay :/
and if we lose its almost dreams down the drain for this year

yadadada
i realized these past few days i've been spending a hell lot of time on the telephone, like from 11-3am o.o' then i'm waking up late but hell its nice talking :D

oh and i'm going to the library to study on tuesday (i pray the cct will not be on tuesday so i get to revise both subjects and have more time for both!)

i suddenly have been addicted to iris by goo goo dolls. i wonder why they call themselves googoo its weird well they're good anyways.

and i dont want the world to see me, cause i don't think that they'd understand
when everything's made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am

paga poogo lala
woman a:"i lost my panties"
woman b:**:O**
FUNNY ADVERT!
like totally bimb ._.'

okay wish me luck tomorrow i will go to war ladadadayadadadada
oh and i probably wouldnt start since ahmad is playing
pooh well maybe its a good thing
ttyl!
studystudystudy